never enough

i have several messages now.

claire:
honey. we're drifting. it sucks. you are sad and i'm a bit sad (but with not as much reason). if you want i am here to talk. you should talk i think. i mean, it's up to you. and if not with me then that's fine. but i want to be there for you and i want us to be close like before. much love kid. i'll see you on monday...counting the days. :)

bel:
how can someone get me and all my crap? we have the coolest friendship. you are so amazing. you lift me up and you keep me accountable and you listen when i'm ranting (which is often). thanks for being there for me unquestioning this last little while. i've needed you, and i fear i haven't been a great friend to you in all the self-centredness of that. sorry. will make it up to you. i appreciate you muchly!

spally:
my angel in disguise. you may not have the bright glowing thing going on but you're certainly the awesomest. i miss you something crazy, yet i see you more than i ever have ever. it's weird. but i look forward to mondays and uni because of our little lunches. they are so fab. ps. i have big plans for you as one half of the phattest power christian couple. it will be excitement! :P

phil:
dude i've been kinda...something towards you. i've been struggling a bit and probably taking it out on you. i'm sorry. i want to sit down and have a good chat like we did through the summer sometimes. let's make sure that happens ok?

esther:
you rock kid. seriously. pray hard girl. give it to god...who better is there? :) much much much of the love variety to you.

lauren:
honey, i love seeing you, even if it's only occasionally these days. i guess it just means when we get to see each other we are happy and excited and fun and it means all the more. i can't wait to see you around campus and at manning. yiew! work hard kid. you are brilliant. fully. you build me up, you encourage me, you care. i couldn't ask for more.

daniel:
sorry about everything. hehe. i'm totally looking forward to being friends and working together in ministry! you are a top guy. keep jesus as number one. keep being honest with me.

wilmo:
dude! you know what i think about you. wow. that is all. go you. go god working in you. keep encouraging and loving and being you. you may have to fend all the girls off if you keep up this behaviour though! :P

nish:
thanks for caring. thanks for making me feel like you're always there for me. and get your butt back at church already!!!

eirian:
it's tough. work at it like you would a science prac (or whatever crazy things you do in those parts of campus, lol). you are god's workmanship, his masterpiece. live it. see yourself as a child loved by god. then you'll be sweet. you are beautiful. sick brah.

ash:
i got your email. i pretty much agree with your assessment of me. i hope i haven't been too much of a burden to you this year--really. i'm sorry i've been so down. i'm working on it. thank you for being you. amazing, intelligent, kind. in love with jesus. you're quality, kid.

laaaaaaaara:
i love you. you said to write you a long message, but that sums it up pretty nicely i think.



stuff i've been wanting to say, and which i'm now in a sufficiently soppy mood to say. if i haven't mentioned you it's because i suck, not you. i suck eggs, even! feel free to flood me with hate mail if you must.